I'm stuck in the middle plz help.?

Ok well 1 of my best friends likes to drink but she didnt drink until she got a bf then she started cuz he was drinkin. So now she is trying to get me to drink and I don't really want to but at the same time i do. She says its fun but sum times u dont remember wat happened that night u drank, so I'm kinda afraid that if I do drink than i'll do sumthin really stupid and wont remember it. But I kinda want to drink so im stuck in the middle plz help me.